So i was reading an old blog and this entry struck me (it was made on October 5th, 2006):
I wanna be there.....
So today as I was sitting trying to listen to my professor lecture, a memory snuck up on me, and almost made me cry. The face of a girl I met at the camp in Kimberley popped into my mind, and at first I couldn't place her, then it hit me, the first night I was at the camp I was standing in a group of girls, they were all braiding someone's hair, I was just holding the weave and separating the sections out for them. They were asking me what courses I was taking and I explained that I would be starting a university in the fall, which was a hard concept to explain, they start there school year in Jan and ends in Dec, which made it difficult to explain why I hadn't started yet. But then I returned the questions to see about them, and was told about many dreams, one wanted to be a psychiatrist, another a doctor, and another a mom. Which got me to thinking, Where are they now, what are they doing? Then I started to feel bad, because I couldn't remember there names, or anything about them. I spent a whole week (well ok 5 days) with these girls and couldn't remember anything except their dreams. I remember them talking and laughing and all of us having a great time, I remembered one girls comment on how all husbands beat there wives, cause they can, and how she never wanted to marry, then the other girl saying, your not thinking of the right man, then said something in Xhosa.
Then I started to feel something I hadn't felt in a long time (like since I came home.) I wanted nothing more then at that moment to be back there, in South Africa, with those people and there love and there attitudes. I have never experienced anything like it, I cant wait to go back, I wanna go so badly im crying, I feel like I left home to come back here. Every one kept telling me that the feeling would pass, - it hasn't, ive stopped talking about it because yall quit caring to hear, everytime I talk about it you get this look…
I still wanna go back- I still wanna MOVE there, I shouldn't have come home, I almost stayed, but I came back for school, I wish I hadn't…
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Yea so i still feel the same way. It's crazy, i was almost crying as i read it. Hopefully I will be going with the Gateway International Educational Services this summer. I got my application for the internship to South Africa today. It’s so exciting! But scary too. Now all I have to do is come up with the $300 fee it will take for me and bug to apply. Fun stuff. Im so excited to see the things that God will do while im there. Please keep the people that will be touched by this trip in your prayers!
I wanna be there.....
So today as I was sitting trying to listen to my professor lecture, a memory snuck up on me, and almost made me cry. The face of a girl I met at the camp in Kimberley popped into my mind, and at first I couldn't place her, then it hit me, the first night I was at the camp I was standing in a group of girls, they were all braiding someone's hair, I was just holding the weave and separating the sections out for them. They were asking me what courses I was taking and I explained that I would be starting a university in the fall, which was a hard concept to explain, they start there school year in Jan and ends in Dec, which made it difficult to explain why I hadn't started yet. But then I returned the questions to see about them, and was told about many dreams, one wanted to be a psychiatrist, another a doctor, and another a mom. Which got me to thinking, Where are they now, what are they doing? Then I started to feel bad, because I couldn't remember there names, or anything about them. I spent a whole week (well ok 5 days) with these girls and couldn't remember anything except their dreams. I remember them talking and laughing and all of us having a great time, I remembered one girls comment on how all husbands beat there wives, cause they can, and how she never wanted to marry, then the other girl saying, your not thinking of the right man, then said something in Xhosa.
Then I started to feel something I hadn't felt in a long time (like since I came home.) I wanted nothing more then at that moment to be back there, in South Africa, with those people and there love and there attitudes. I have never experienced anything like it, I cant wait to go back, I wanna go so badly im crying, I feel like I left home to come back here. Every one kept telling me that the feeling would pass, - it hasn't, ive stopped talking about it because yall quit caring to hear, everytime I talk about it you get this look…
I still wanna go back- I still wanna MOVE there, I shouldn't have come home, I almost stayed, but I came back for school, I wish I hadn't…
.......................................................................................................................................................
Yea so i still feel the same way. It's crazy, i was almost crying as i read it. Hopefully I will be going with the Gateway International Educational Services this summer. I got my application for the internship to South Africa today. It’s so exciting! But scary too. Now all I have to do is come up with the $300 fee it will take for me and bug to apply. Fun stuff. Im so excited to see the things that God will do while im there. Please keep the people that will be touched by this trip in your prayers!
